By chance I rose early today, before the scorching sun had risen and warmed the sand. Lucky me. Since it was still the cooler chill of nighttime, I decided to train. And train I did. I have gotten much better since the Chuunin exams, I'd even go so far as to say I'm better than Kankuro who before the chuunin exams I used to lose against. Ah, yes, my beautiful fan is now swung with much greater ease. By the time the sun began it's ascent into the sky, I had already trained for two hours- a very productive morning. Deciding my brothers would soon wake (and also that the sun would warm me to the point of heat exhaustion if I kept up my training), I left the spot in front of our house to sit by the dunes hoping to avoid them. Gaara is getting even more sadistic, that monster must be taking a greater hold on him. Yet again my thoughts drift to the chuunin exams. For that time, I let myself remenice on days past.
It hadn't actually be all that long ago, the exams, and so the memory was still fresh. Mostly though, now was the time to review old fights and perfect my strategies. My first fight was nothing to go on, that Tenten girl was so weak it amazed me. How had she gotten past any fights at all? My second fight, though, was a challenge. That boy, Shikamaru, was definitely a rival- you could tell he had more of an intellect that the others put together. I'd have to watch out for him if we were sent one any more missions against the Konoha... I suppose my preformance in that skirmish was acceptable, but not nearly as good as it should have been- I will have to be more aware in future fights and make sure I have no weakness. I know I would become better if I had someone to practice against, but I know fighting either Gaara or Kankuro would be unwise. Even if by chance I won, my life would most likely be ended by them shortly out of spite...
Sometimes I wish I could just leave my family and set out somewhere, but unfortuately it cannot be so. Who would take care that Shuukaku was not released if not for me? Who would protect Gaara from our father? If I left, who would protect ME from my father from killing me as soon as I became a missing-nin? It's not that I don't care for my family- the fact that Gaara is still alive and somewhat sane is proof enough of that- it's just that it's so much to ask for from me. I'm but a kid yet, albiet one with the intelligence of an adult, but youthful none the less... No. I am strong. I am a kunoichi of the sand. I will not back down in the face of trouble. So live, so die...
Whne I couldn't stand my thoughts any longer, and it was still to hot to train successfully (by then it was afternoon) I headed back, thankful that I had so far avoided my relatives. I retired to my room, and here I reside now. Perhaps tomorrow will be a more productive (and hopefully cooler) day.